Thursday, August 21, 2008

A Love of no contact.


Love?
the deffinintion found in most dictionaries cut the meaning so short. when truth is love has a never ending meaning, in the eyes of those who have found it, gone through it, truly lived it, and terribly lost it. As a never ending meaning Love only expands more an more through gestures, words, feelings, and most importantly emotions one's experienced with another.

But what if what you considered your love to be, was something or to be more specific "someone" so distant, so untouchable, yett so close in very few ways. . . .As i write this &think over what I've actually started. I can surely say it was pure trickery, not love at all. I just don't believe in love at a distance.

To know real love you should be able to feel ones embrace, if not through every waking day or every night, at least once in one's precious lifetime. Now to feel a loved one's embrace is nothing sexual. It can be the simplest brush of a cheek. But even in that moment you feel it. I've never felt it how I've dreamt it, so like i said I've actually never been in TRUE love. Although I've come pretty close once. But does it take a genius to know &speak on what it's said to be?



...&now i feel like I've said so much, with so many words that i really haven't said anything at all. . . does anyone understand. =/ if not, im not surprised, i wasn't expecting it anyway. A mind so troubled as mine, how could i ask for any ONE person to truly understand. Sheeeeesh.

ONE OF THOSE NIGHTS

One drunken night, so unexpected. She pours her heart out to him, &to the extent of her memory he did the same but im sure, he much more careful with his words. There was nothing between the two of them. He spoke of his life and she decided to speak of hers. Both souls so open with each other, quite a lot in common she believed. She shared things(thoughts) with him she never imagined to ever leave her mind let alone flow from her tounge to the ears of another, Things she'd never even thought to share with that girl she calls her bestfriend. Surprising right? For the both of them the words were spoken so freely, it was so easy for her; sitting in front of him face to face &speaking her mind. After all was said she even shed tears, nothing major. Just a sniffle hear and a sniffle there. But he saw more than just that &at that very moment he rested his hand on her shoulder and spoke these very words "It's okay, i understand." And. . . . . . . .

(I'm sorry but the rest of that night is never
to be spoken of again, not even in this entry.)

Sheeeeeesh.

What a summer "she's" had !
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